When It’s Over—-Thursday, April 26, 2018

I know this is rather morbid, but I can’t help it.

For some reason that is where I am today.

Pondering life and being alive.

I woke from bad dreams, after three nights of restless sleep, or sleep so sound my arms and knees were asleep and I woke suddenly thinking something was very wrong with me. VERY WRONG! Wake UP!  Now!

Jerking awake I realized those foreign things call arms and legs were almost useless, which caused me to panic.

Then, I when I am fully awake and realize it was just the fact I had slept too hard and too long in one spot; nothing to be alarmed over. I had to sigh with relief.

Still…I find that today I am pondering being alive–maybe I have been for a spell.  But today it is in full force.

Then I found this poem, by Mary Oliver, and realized others go through this phase also…at least once in their life.

 “When it’s over, I want to say: all my life

I was a bride married to amazement.

I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.

When it is over, I don’t want to wonder

if I have made of my life something particular, and real.

I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,

or full of argument.

I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.”

― Mary Oliver

I think leaving this world would/will be hard. There is so much beauty here, so much excitement in everyday living, so much joy in absorbing every moment of every second, that (if I had to explain Heaven) I sometimes wonder if Heaven really is here on earth.

From my heart to your world,




29 thoughts on “When It’s Over—-Thursday, April 26, 2018

    • I just got done with one last week, and everything is fine. So I think I just must be feeling nostalgic for the wonder of this earth. It’s the only thing I can think of.


  1. You share your slice of Heaven so beautifully ~ and I love it. I am counting on that continuing for a long while my dear friend… There are so many days I wish I could just pop in for coffee with you, and I really hope to do that… soon. Thanks for sharing all you do! ♡


  2. No morbid thinking allowed in the Spring….. You have brought love and sunshine to many in this world and have shared the beauty with us. Now go out and smell the flowers.


  3. There are many that believe we leave this world for a short time only to come back and enjoy its splendor yet once again . . . I kinda like that . . . makes it a little easier to think of leaving. . . And that’s a morbidly beautiful poem ☺


    • It will be hard to leave. There are some who say that the other side is just a Veil between us and the ones we love are still there and can see us. If that is so, they still get to love this amazing world we call earth.


  4. You are living the life you were clearly made for, and with the person made for you. Why be in a hurry to leave it? I wish we could all have that, and simply stop when the body’s failing makes it no longer enjoyable, but instead, medical science drags the long decline out until finally, we’re living by inches…


    • I’m not in a hurry. I guess I didn’t explain myself very well…I feel like Heaven is right here on earth right now…so I want to live every day to the fullest and not just breath in and out and call that living.

      I am with you…I wish we could just stop…then make the jump. Instead of the going out in inches and misery. But it isn’t the way … it isn’t the way. Sadly


  5. Do you remember before you were born? Do you remember the joy when your children were born? I think the reverse is true for death…many people will be waiting for me with that same amount of joy and some dogs too! I am at peace and an ready to go when The Good Lord calls me. 🙂


  6. It is a fact that the more birthdays a person has, the longer they live 😉 But also a lot of birthdays helps one realize the value of time and we tend to savor it more and look for what is truly important. The poem you chose is excellent. Not morbid al all in my opinion. Wishing you restful sleep and better dreams. Isn’t it a blessing to be on the better side of a long winter!??!


  7. I think that NOT to have felt like that by the time you’ve reached middle age would definitely mean you were just visiting this world! (And of course I don’t mean the pins and needles feeling on waking, but the deeper thoughts you express so well). Mary Oliver is so good at making us realize we’re not alone in our thoughts. So are you!


  8. Heaven is better, although I too sometimes wonder how that is possible. If I try to imagine it as being as excellent as it is here and now, I initially think that it would be without all the difficulties of the past, but then I realize that if I had the choice, I would have lived with the difficulties too.


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