I’m tired. I don’t know why. I can’t seem to ‘get myself together’
There is always something I need to do or get done or should have been done yesterday
Although, I know I am busy all the time.
I feel like I am standing in one spot spinning my wheels
Everywhere I look there is something I should be doing, although…the should is as far as I seem to get
Part of it is my age…I just don’t get as much done as I used to even as short a time ago as a couple of years.
Terry’s and my day starts early 4:30 or 5:00 at the latest
And it ends at dark. Sometimes, though, we do just sit outside enjoying the evening light (as you well know.)
And we have been fortunate to have visitors which breaks up the monotony of work
Still, I often wonder where time has gone.
There is still some painting I need to do on the house, the windows need to be washed, dusting and other mundane things to accomplish
Just the thought of all that work makes me…
Well, tired.
Then coming in from the last set of water, passing one of the ditches…Terry and I came across
A little message written in mud: “Hi Grandpa” it says.
Even though still weary…tired to the bone, even…the joy of being this age is immense.
For without the ages Terry and I are; there wouldn’t be those precious grandchildren…who leave little messages in the mud.
From my world to your heart,
Linda
The way I see it, ‘should’ is a word that needs to be banned. Who says you ‘should’ paint, dust, wash windows? Will a little dust hurt? Will the world tip on its axis if you don’t paint, or wash windows or weed? My feeling is that none of us should go into the dark without having spent a little time sitting and taking in the beauty of the world.
What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.
No time to turn at Beauty’s glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
William Henry Davies
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Oh sit and stare. Thank you, I needed this.
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Believe me, you’re not alone in feeling weary much of the time. I would like to think that I’m still young, but my body tells me otherwise. But you do have the glorious skies that you share with us, as well as those previous grandchildren with their unexpected messages. Blessings indeed!
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I really don’t like this weary feeling. I’m sure you feel the same way. 😦
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Dust in the house and other chores patiently wait for us, I have found
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And grow while they wait. I’m challenging myself to at least dust once a month.
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I love the muddy love note-the best kind. How about the smoke you’re being exposed too adding to your ‘aging’ fatigue? Glad for you the grandchildren visit fairly often. Regards, Sandy
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I’ve been wondering about that. We can only see a mile away now and it’s closing in. Sigh.
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So sweet! Nothing like a mud message to make your day!
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And a surprise! I’m glad we saw it before the water washed it away. 🙂
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Oh, I hear you! Weary to the bone some days. I can only imagine what it will be like some day, to hopefully have grand children who will leave us messages! 🙂 Btw…I love your hollyhocks!
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Thank you…they are delightful to grow!
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I know, I feel the same way. I never very everything done anymore. I’ll come make you dinner soon 🙂 We deserve a treat.
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I’ll make you dinner!!!
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Glad to see a post. Didn’t know how close the tornadoes were to you.
You all need you some help!
Take care and God bless.
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The eastern slope is getting the tornadoes and we are getting fire. 😦
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I know the feeling all to well, Linda. I’m so sorry. I often write in my journal that I’m in a chronic state of overwhelm. I started underlining every time I wrote the word SHOULD. It’s quite enlightening. Now that I know my days are fewer, the “should’s” are fewer and I use my morning pages to highlight how I want to spend this precious day. Every morning I’m grateful that I woke and ask what can I do that’s delightful. The fatigue is a wake up call. Listen carefully to what it’s saying. It will come out in your writing. I’m tire of…. until the answer presents. Sending you huge squishy hugs. You are so fortunate to have a loving family around you but something else is trying to come into your awareness.
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What I can do that is delightful! Thank you so much for those words!
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Maybe it’s time to slow down and enjoy things more. Listen to your body. Any chance to cut back on the farming a little? Every woman knows how to cut back on house work–just don’t wear your glasses. No one will ever put on your tombstone that you were a good worker, and the house/yard/farm were always in great shape. You and Terry need to do some things while you are still able. Slide into retirement slowly, a little at a time. I think you are being told. Best of luck
Katie
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Terry really is thinking that this is the last year….I’ve been hearing that for ten years now.
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Aww Bless the little people who leave precious messages in the mud for you to find! You two work so very hard, getting up so early and working hard all thru the day. Thank God you have the chance to sit and rock once in awhile. Before you know it, it will be winter once again and you’ll have more time but you’ll be wishing for the sun and the heat! Take each day as it comes Linda….things will all work out in the end.
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It does. And come winter I will be happy for snow…but not for winter…
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What a perfect message 🙂
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Only thing i don’t understand is how you don’t feel this way more often!! Your beautiful skies must call you to relax and enjoy!! And the message in the mud does perfectly express the joys of growing old(er)~! The poem your first commenter quoted is perfect.
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Rest and re-hydrate, dear friend. Take care of you!
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Thanks, Marianne
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I am still in the land of nod at 4.30am. You and Terry are such hard workers … ! I just love your images Linda … what a fabulous collection my friend! And a message in mud .. wonderful! 😍
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A message in the mud…not many get those! 🙂
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